A little background

I haven't always been the fat girl. While I was never a twig, I was never big either. Growing up, I was in many sports, and that combined with working on the farm, I always remained slim. My sophomore year of high school I got up to a whopping 160 over the winter since I had stopped playing volleyball and basketball, but come track season, I went right back down.

When I started college, I was maybe 135 soaking wet (hooray anorexia). I got away from a psycho boyfriend and found a new one who wasn't very active. At the end of the year, I was around 185. I wasn't happy, and struggled for ages to lose weight, but eventually did and was around 165 when I met J. At that point, I was eating nothing but a slim fast shake for breakfast, then a tiny salad for lunch and supper and was running 3 miles a day. Meeting him changed that. I also started powerlifting at this time. My first couple meets I managed to pull off weighing in at 165 (and cut like a mother one meet from 178 to 163 in 12 days for one), but quickly moved up to 181, and then 198 shortly after. Eventually even 198 became a struggle to hit (I couldn't even cut there at this point).

Through the years of lifting, I slowly gained weight. I kept blaming it on the lifting, but if this were really the case I would have been making way bigger gains in the gym. With cutting weight for meets, I am somewhat fear I may have done some damage to my metabolism. Only time will tell.

So the plan for now is to lose weight the right way- exercising mostly normal (still lifting though) and eating better. Calorie counting doesn't work for me as I have a bit of an addictive personality and tend to overdo things (meaning I end up at 500-600 calories a day before I give up and binge). So far the Weight Watchers thing feels much better than that. Hopefully this good trend continues!